Losing Count
I would like to
extend a half-hearted apology to those who expected more frequent updates on
all that is happening in Santa Rosa del Sara.
Alas, there has been so much happening in this metropolis of the Bolvian
heartland and I have had precious little time or bandwith to record and share
it all. Even now, I only have time to
put down these thoughts by waking earlier than the rest of our team (though the
roosters of Santa Rosa have been up for a couple hours already). It is already our last day – I can’t believe
how fast a week can go.
Now, I am the
first to admit that I am no accountant.
I did carry a math minor for a few semesters, but dropped it like a bad
habit after it took me an entire semester to “prove” that 1=1 (apparently,
writing “duh” on an exam does not cut it at the college level). Nonetheless, I do come from a numerically
obsessed profession, which can be both a good thing and a bad thing. Though we measure success in less concrete
ways, at the end of the project I will still be able to tell you how many
procedures we performed, how many consultations were seen, and how many
prescriptions were written. Though we
can say that it’s “not about the numbers”, the numbers are, in the end,
individual people, and it is indeed all about the people. Each of them are a singularity of infinite
importance, neither greater nor lesser in value or in substance than
another. On this particular project, God
has chosen to shower His blessings upon us with both people and numbers, with
both quantity and quality of interactions with both our patients and our
partners in service. It has been
wonderful.
One specific application
of numbers in the field of surgery is that of making sure that our “counts” are
correct. That is, we want to make sure
that we finish an operation with same number of needles, scalpel blades,
instruments, and gauze pads that we started it with. This is a good idea due to the dangerous
consequences of leaving something behind in a patient. Though a healthy idea in the operating room,
I would contend that there are other areas of life where neurotically keeping
such counts is neither possible nor advisable.
Now I am very happy to say that we kept very good count of our
instruments and supplies in the operating room, but I am equally happy to tell
you that I have completely lost count of much more important things through our
week here in Santa Rosa.
I have already lost count of how many
operations we have done – I believe it is around 30 over the first four days –
For a two surgeon, one week project, this will be a record pace so far as my
own projects go. Today will be a bit
lighter as we will be packing up the anesthesia machine and most our supplies
while repairing a hernia and removing some lipomas (small fatty tumors) under
local anesthesia. We were originally
going to head back to Santa Cruz tonight for some sightseeing/ souvenir shopping,
but the mayor of Santa Rosa has planned a barbecue for us and the hospital
workers as well as an official ceremony at the downtown square. I hope they don’t make me give a speech; all
I can really do in Spanish is ask for a scalpel and tell you how many ibuprofen
tablets one should take after I use said scalpel.
I have lost count
of how many belly-laughs we have shared as a team. Everyone has a great sense of humor and
irony. The language barrier, along with
the often-embarassing moments that make up healthcare have provided plenty of
fodder (as have my tampons). Everyone
has had a turn at being harassed by their teammates. One would think the medical director (“Del
Medico”) would be spared such harassment, but alas he has not.
I have also lost
count of the number of times I have been encouraged by my teammates down here –
not flattered or patronized, but truly encouraged. Surgery in this environment can be quite easy
one moment, and then can become an immense stress when a case gets
difficult. The lighting is poor, the
equipment old and limited, and the ancillary resources are few with which to
manage a complication should one occur.
It can get difficult to maintain one’s cool in a hot operating room with
two cases going on at once. When I wear that frustration on my sleeve (I may
have stamped my feet once or twice), the others have been quite forgiving and
gracious with me. Our helpers, whether
they be our North American volunteers, our Bolivian volunteers, or the local
hospital staff working unpaid overtime (and hence volunteers in their own
right), have bent over backwards each time to enable me to complete the task at
hand. After a difficult case, I am
offered words of encouragement, a drink of cold water, a five minute break, prayers
of encouragement, and sometimes a mood-lifting laugh.
I’m sure the
clinic team has also lost count of the number of patients they have treated, as
well as the number of pot-holes they have had to drive Ruben’s 1984
Land-Cruiser through to get to their locations.
Long lines always await them followed by long hours in hot, humid exam
rooms. In spite of their daunting task,
it is quite uplifting to hear about the amount of time they manage to spend
listening to their patients. The chief complaint may only be a headache or
arthritis, but instead of quickly moving on to the “more interesting” patient,
they have taken the time to sit with, listen to, encourage, pray, and share the
love of Christ with their patients. Our translators have been instrumental parts
not only the medical care, but also in our ability to personally connect with
people whose lives are so different than our own.
I have lost track
of how many times our wonderful recovery room nurses Dorothy and Freddie have
gone back to check on our postop patients, even long after they have left the
recovery room. We did a component
separation (huge hernia repair that involves separating out the muscle layers
of the abdominal wall) the first day on a sweet little lady named Modesta (and
by sweet I mean incredibly stubborn). At
first, we would ask her to take a deep breath (to prevent postoperative fevers
and pneumonia) – she would just shake her braided head and say “no” – no
discussion, no excuses, just “no.” It
has been a real joy to see Dorothy visit her a few times each day to attend to
her needs and to see her soften up in response.
By Thursday, we were laughing about her “bad hair day” and were recruiting
her to help on next year’s project.
We are told (and
are tempted to try) to count our blessings.
I think this is so that we will appreciate them appropriately, though
the temptation is often to formulate ways to pay them back or to “pay them forward.” It is human nature to try and make sure that
our “counts are correct.” The reality is
however, that I can never adequately pay anyone back for the blessings I have
received. Even the attempt serves to
insult the giver, to spoil the gift, and to oblige the recipient towards
reciprocation based in guilt rather than joy.
In the end, sometimes all we can and should say is a heart felt “Thank
You” and to happily lose count of both what we have given and have been given. So to the people and government of Santa
Rosa, to the staff of Hospital Dr. Melchior Pinto Parada, to the bevy of
Bolivian MMI staff and volunteers, and to everyone who came (or enabled us to
come) from the States – Thank You. I
cannot ever hope to pay you back.
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